Oh God, I'm on such an art block when it comes to things I should draw for other people. I mean, I'm drawing. A LOT. Mainly Lysander to get a feel for him. Which reminds me to take a picture of his ref and upload that.

Anyways, so, overall, I'm in some what of a mental... slum. I'm always stressed out by school so I concentrate on personal art with assigned art worked on for only an hour or less. And my parents are shoving my grades and their disappointment down my throat thinking it's going to actually motivate me to so better, which, anturally, has the opposite affect.

ARGH, I'll stop being a whiny emo furfag now.

Anyways, so, currently I have a ref sheet for Lysander sort of done. It's on notebook paper and I'm going to take a picture and redraw it on the computer. I'm working on sketching Caerwyn's ref sheet at school, but it's difficult since people like to see me draw and Caerwyn is kind of... nude on the ref sheet so... yeah. xD Working on that kind of sucks since I'm most creative during Language Arts class, but I have to worry about Hutch or Krista looking at my notebook.

ANYWAYS, I am alive, guyz. Amazing, ain't it? I'll be taking pictures of paper sketches and start putting those up since I don't have much digital drawing time.

Talk to me, pl0x? Tell me about yourselves? xD

~IRL Friends~


~Wife~


~Online Friends~

So, I've decided to pick up that 100 themes challenge. ;D

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

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If you were suddenly ruler of the planet, the first five things you'd do are:

1. Eliminate the weak and deathly ill. Not only will it decrease human populations, but it will also keep the human race stronger.
2. Create a lawyer hunting season! There are WAY too many of those bishes.
3. Abolish the notion of Global Warming as much as possible.
4. Strive to ease world hunger, if not put it to an end.
5. Allow gay marriage (god damn it)


And this too!

What is the name of your fursona?
Caerwyn Bleidd (Caer for short)

Where did the name of your Fursona come from?
Me searching through a list of Celtic names.

What species is your fursona and why did you choose that species?
North American Timber Wolf and Black Leopard because they are my theriotypes. >w<

What color is your fursona and why? Hair/fur/eyes/etc Why?:
He has shades of gray because I'm a pessimist and see the world in shades of gray with very little white. Plus I wanted his black leopard side to show. As for the purple nose and tail tip, I see it as a representation of my personality (don't ask.) The gradient hair (dark purple to white) I did 'cause it's cool. Finally, his piercings change colors to suit my mood and the white that will be his tattoos (still working on those) was picked to contrast his fur.


What is your fursona's personality and how does this compare to Shy, a bit of a loner, has mood swings, loyal, hyper a lot, hug whore-ish, kind, selfless, concerned, cautious/afraid, etc. Basically my personality in real life.


What is one item your fursona owns that is significant to you irl?
My hair style, my body type (different gender, though), and my red dog collar (generally drawn only in personal doodles.)

What is one thing you think you would say to your fursona if you could meet?
"OMG! *rapes*"? I don't know... D'

What is one thing your fursona would say to you if you could meet?
"Ah! I need an adult! *cries*"

How has your fursona changed over the years?
A good deal, but I'm pretty sure I've settled on a pretty stable design. :/ Only his hair style will change with mine.

How long have you had this fursona?
A year and a half, I think.

Would you like to be more like your fursona?
I'd do anything to magically become male, sprout fur, and look like him. D: It'd be kickass.

~IRL Friends~


~Online Friends~

... while grounded from both interwebs and digital drawing. D' *is sneaking on atm*


1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you said?:
"...Damn my bangs, why aren't they working today?!"

2. When is the next time you will make out?:
Never. :3 lulz, likesrsly

3. What's a word that rhymes with "LUCK"?:
Duck...? D:

4. What's your favorite planet?:
PLUTO! Even though it's not technically a planet anymore... but it is in my book. D<

5. Who's the 4th person on your missed calls list?:
My mum. :3 lol

6. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?:
Midnight... even though I share a cell with my dad. xD

7. What shirt are you wearing right now?:
Black and yellow DRAGON hoodie that isn't even mine.

8. What do you "label" yourself as?:
I don't like labels, but as a joke, I say "uncomformist emo" lol ;3

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?:
Idk what company made my slippers.

10. Bright or dark room?:
Dark

11. What do you think about the person who last took the survery?:
idk...? lol xD *doesn't remember who she got this from*

12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?:
None; I sleep on the floor.

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?:
Being a nerd and playing pokemon. xD

14. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say?:
idk... it was AGES ago. D' I know it was from though.

15. What just so happens to be the best song in the world?:
I can't pick a favorite. D:

16. What's a word or phrase that you say a lot?:
Om nom nom

17. Who told you they loved you last?:
Um... :/ Darin, I think, as a friend. If not, then since we say "I Love You" twenty times a day. xD

18. Last furry thing you touched?:
My crazy kitty, Lamont. :3

19. How many drugs have you done in the past 3 days?:
Other than some meds, none. :3

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?:
None since I got an awesome Sony Cybershot earlier this month as a belated b-day gift. HO-HAH!

21. Favorite age you have been so far?:
Um... between conception and birth? xD lol, naw. 15-16. I met some awesome friends those ages.

22. Your worst enemy?:
Jani Neko-kun.

23. What is your current desktop picture?:
A picture I took while in South Carolina.

24. What is the last thing you said to someone?:
Verbally? Um "Stop eating chocolate! Your ass is fat enough!" to my mother. >>

25. Do you love someone?:
Yup, and it's painfully obvious, which sucks since I seriously shouldn't love the person. lol xD

26. Last song you listened to?:
Cyanide by Deathstars.

p.s. Whiplasher = om nom nom

27. If the last person you spoke to on the phone was getting shot at what would you do?:
... I would break down crying and lock myself in my room for 3 days, then never be the same again. lol xD

28. Do you do the games in the ads on myspace?:
Ewww, MySpace. nope. xD

29. What are your favorite Pjs?:
My leopard ones. >>;;

30. What do you do when you pass graveyards?:
Take pictures, d'uh. And maybe light some candles if it's Nov. 1st.

31. Have you ever seen a shooting star?:
Many times. :3

32. How old do you think you'll live to be?:
I don't want to grow old.

33. Your favourite website?:
idk.... xD

34. List five things you want to do in your lifetime:
1) Open a wolf Sanctuary
2) Get better at art
3) Get nominated for GHP art?
4) Glomp Darin so hard he loses balance and we both fall over.
5) Keep my vows.

I TAG
NO ONE. ;D

...so, have a quiz stolen from

Listening to any music?
-Yup. >w< FScene8 by The Medic Droid
Where do you live?
-State of Georgia, United States :/
When were you born?
-September. YAY?
What is your starsign, and what typical qualities of this sign do you possess?
-Libra, and I fit most Libra qualities. DX
What kind of mood are you in?
-I'm not really in one. :/
What’s the weather like round your area?
-It's medium ground, though, for some reason, I'm cold ALL the time. T_T
Who is in the room with you?
-No one 8D
What are you wearing?
-NOTHING! Naw, j/k Tanktop and leopard print pj bottoms
What is your make up like today?
-... I don't wear make up. Ever.

Hair colour:
-Dyed black atm, but it's a chocolate brown naturally
Hair length:
-A little past my shoulder blades when completely straight.
Hair style:
-When I'm in the mood where I can safely use a flat iron, straight and emo-ish. When I'm in a bad/neutral mood (i.e. now) it's a bush. xD
Eye colour:
-Brown... D: Practically matches my natural hair color.
Eye size:
-idk... normal?
Shoe size:
-10, women's. :/
Clothes size:
-Anywhere between extra small to medium IF I want form fitting clothes; I prefer medium to large for a nice, loose feel that doesn't show off my figure.
Height:
-5'7", I think. :/ I'm so short compared to a lot of my friends. T_T
Website:
-...
AIM:
-I'm, like, never on AIM anymore. >: It's glitches a lot.
Journal:
-...
Occupation:
-High school sophomore
Hobbies/pastimes:
-Drawing, roleplaying, reading, writing, being lazy, hugging my friends
General loves:
-Animals, friends, art
General hates:
-A certain someone, labels

Section two: Your surroundings

What colour is your bedroom?
-A wintery blue. <3
Do you have a double bed?
-nope
How large or small is it?
-Meh... average size.
Do you have any of these in your room:

(A). TV: No
(B). DVD Player: No
(C). VCR: No
(D). Stereo: Yes
(E). Computer: I wish... -_-

What is your favourite item of furniture?
-None... I like the floor, though. 8D
What kind of posters are displayed upon your walls?
-A hellsing wall scrolls, some paintings by my dad, a Tokio Hotel magazine poster, and a couple of drawings by Chrissi. ^^
When was your bedroom last decorated?
-Um, summer when my mother was in Poland. We totally took everything out, painted it from yellow to blue, then my dad did a wolf mural. ^^
Where did you buy your furniture?
-Various places.
Do you have candles?
-A few, yes.
Have a calendar this year – what is it?
-Um... no. xD
Do you live in a – house/bungalow/flat/apartment/villa/castle/other:
-House
Do you live in/on a close/estate/street/road:
-Street...? :/
Who do you live with currently?
-Mum, Dad, and 2 cats
Are you happy where you are living?
-I guess...
Have you ever moved?
-A few times when i was younger.
How many bedrooms are in your house [or whatever]:
-Two
How many bathrooms?
-Two
How many rooms in general?
-Um... 7 to 11, depending on what you consider a room. xD
How big is the garden?
-Um... okay-ish sized...? D:

Section three: Ambitions and careers [a short one]

Do you have a job?
-I wish
If so, where do you work?
-...
Do you enjoy it?
-...
How long have you worked there?
-...
Do you get along with your boss?
-...
What are your general duties in this job?
-...

What is your life-long ambition, no matter how far-fetched?
-To open up a wolf sanctuary >_>
Can you see yourself achieving this ambition/career?
-Possibly...
How many jobs have you had?
-None T_T

Section four: You, friends and your hobbies.

What kind of person are you, personality wise?
-idk... weak-willed, lacking self esteem, generous, kind, annoying, bitchy at times, depressive, mood-swing-ish, humorous (at times), over friendly, and a hug whore.
What are your annoyances?
-Very few things...
The kind of people you love:
-Everyone, in a sense
The kind of people you hate:
-Once again, everyone, in a sense... except my friends. xD I can't hate them.
Are you a morning or night time person, and why?
-Night... it's so beautiful at night, especially when you don't have light pollution or clouds ruining the sky. ^^
Your best girl-mate:
-Chrissi^^ *hugs*
Your best guy-mate:
-Erm... A tie between Kyle and Darin. ^^
Others:
-Everyone else I know and love...?
Internet mates:
-DA friends, below; Adam; Joshua; Mau; Chris... and those are my really close ones, really.
Your local: Chrissi, Kyle, Darin, Sarah, Kat, Kendra, Lauren, Tiffany, Lucas, Shiloh, Jesse, Jordan, Steven, Evan, Kyson, Adam W., Natasha, Ben, and a few others I can't remember due to laziness. D: Sorry if I forgot someone.
Your phrases/words you say a lot:
-"Oh meh gawd, bitch" (for Kendra's giggles); "Kindasortabutwhatever"; "NOWAI!"
What makes you a good friend?
-In all honesty, I do not know...
What do you require in a friendship?
-Depends on the person, really.
Do you cry easily?
-Yes... I was crying for 40 minutes Sunday night after causing our cacti to get knocked over when it snagged on my hoodie. :/
Are you religious?
-Nope. >w<
What is the weirdest hobby you have?
-My discussions with me friend Adam in Pittsburgh can be considered a weird hobby. :0
Do you smoke?
-No, but I kinda wish I did. >w< I love the smell of cigarette smoke.
Do you drink?
-Only against my will.
Ever done drugs?
-Popped pills :/
Describe your most awful drunken experience:
-Um... xD I was 4 and got sick after mum put vodka in my Orange Juice. lol
Describe your best drunken experience:
-HAVE NONE D<
Describe your weirdest drunken experience:
-None
Who is your favourite friend to get drunk with?
-No one
Which friend do you least like to get drunk with?
-My relatives in Poland. I've seen them drunk... it isn't a pretty sight. xD
What do you drink?
-Nothing alcoholic... vodka or mead if I have to.
Where do you drink?
-Home...? D:
Do you own a mobile phone?
-Not really... sorta?
Who do you text most often?
-It USED to be Kyle... But I can't txt message anymore.
Do you read often?
-Not as often as I used to.
What book are you reading?
-The Birth of Venus
What book do you plan to read next?
-*shrugs* I dunno
What was the last movie you watched?
-Um... :/ I watched... actually, idk... e_o;;
What was the last meal you ate?
-I don't remember... it was yesterday. >_>

Section five: Love and Relationships

The most obvious question, are you single or involved?
-Single... obviously.
If yes:
(A). How long have you been seeing them?
-N/A
(B). Is this a record for you?
-N/A
(C). Do you love them?
-NA/
If no, do you wish you were in a relationship, and why?
-At times, yes, and at times, no. Yes, see answer to the next question. No, because a lot of pain can come from relationships and I fear emotional pain.
Do you have crushes?
-I don't crush. I either admire for a few days, or love.
How many people have you loved?
-In the general definition, two people. In my strict standards of love, only one person.
Are you in love with anyone now?
-Yes, and I hate it very much, yet enjoy every moment of it, even though it is quite... painful, I guess.
What is the most romantic thing someone could do for you?
-Probably a camping trip that last a few days with romantic twists thrown in...?
The most romantic thing someone has done for you?
-Spent a large sum of money to buy me a necklace then spent another sum of money to ship it across seas. Thanks, Joshua. ^////////^
Do you appreciate romance?
-Amazingly enough, yes. :/ If I ever get the opportunity, which I doubt I will, I'm pretty sure I'd be a romantic myself, even though I... have a distaste for love and what it can symbolize among my peers.
Are you really romantic, and if so, in what ways?
-I'm pretty sure I would be. How, I don't know.
Most complimented part of you (physical or non):
-I don't know... I don't really take compliments well, so I've never really registered them in my mind. My art, I guess...
Would you say you are open-minded about your sexuality?
-Mmm, yeah.
Personality – what kind of guy/girl do you go for/you like:
-I'm too young to know what I want...
Appearance – Tall?
-Once again... to young to know. I'm not really picky, though. :/
What would you want your love interest to be interested to you:
-I fail to understand this question's point. xD
Is it important that they have a lot in common with you?
-Not really... I'm more interested in one's willingness to explore other interests, but having a fair amount of things in common would be nice to create a somewhat steady relationship foundation. :/
What starsign are you most compatible with?
-Like hell I'd know. D<
How often do you attract people?
-I don't know... I only know of one person. Other than that, no one tells me, which is for the better. e_o;;
What turns you on?
-Waists, collarbones, neck, and eyes... STFUX, YES I'M WEIRD! D<
What turns you off?
-mmm... idk. I have the ability to find a way to like everything. :/
Celebrities you think are hot:
-None, I guess. >:


Section six: Music, TV and movies

OK, the expected questions coming up. What kind of music do you listen to?
-Everything. XD Mainly J-rock, metal, emo/punk, screamo, and trance
Your top five bands/singers:
-Dir en Grey, The GazettE, The Medic Droid, ATB, and OTEP
Why do you like this kind of music, how does it reflect your personality?
-Personally, idk. :/
If you could steal anybody’s vocals for your own, whose would you steal?
-No one's. What's the point? I don't like singing.
Would you like to be in a band, or are you?
-No and no
What would you name it [or what is it called]:
-N/A
What kind of music do you/would you play:
-N/A
Would there some kind of trademark or gimmick for your band or you as the singer/musician personally?
-N/A
Do you play any instruments?
-Not anymore. xD Lucas says I should learn to play the bagpipes, though.
Think up a music video for a song of yours and describe it to me:
-It involves baby eating, Kyo throwing up, some alien-nazi thing, some guy ripping out and eating his own heart, a group orgy, and various other things.
Ever written a song?
-Once...
Your favourite music videos?
-OBSCURE by Dir en Grey. |3
Your most recently purchased CD?
-idk...
Your favourite album:
-idk
Your favourite song/s:
-I don't do favs.
Your favourite bands/singers as a kid, or growing up:
-ATB. >w<

Your favourite movies:
-Don't. DO. Favs.
What kind of movies do you like to watch?
-Everything...?
Your favourite actors:
-Have none
Your favourite actresses:
-Have none
TV shows you watch:
-House M.D., Monk, Psych, and The Colbert Report

Section seven: The Ending.

What time is it now?
-10:01 pm
How long did it take you to fill this out?
-An hour-ish...?
What are you going to do now?
-Say goodnight to Darin then possibly sleep.

~IRL Friends~


~Online Friends~

So, in celebration of a new account (first deviation for this account is being worked on), I decided I'll start things off by doing five, free art sketches for the first five people to comment in my journal. If I get five, that is. xD

1. -plotting-
2. -plotting-
3. -Finished- [link]
4. -researching/plotting-
5. -Finished; [link] -

Fast replies, y'all. ;3

And, because I love all of you so much...

6. -plotting- (I'm gonna enjoy this one, Chrissi. RaduxCaer, hosnap. Definte event in the Heart of Dreams world since they work together there. x3)
7. -Finished- [link]
8. -plotting-

:/ I'm also gonna busy myself with trying to make a CCS for my journal. ;3

Peace, y'all. Love ya.

~Caerwyn

~IRL Friends~


~Online Friends~